99th post!!! YAY!!

Left one more.. Ah ha ah ha! Well.. Todae i went out with WK.. 1 - 3.. Too bad Fiz couldnt come.. I walked around and round and bought nothing.. Only eat KFC then tok tok about girls.. and guyz.. In our school... Im like super irritated by him as he keep on elbowing me into the way of others.. Until i gave him a muay thai elbow to the chest.. which caused a whiplash in his neck.. =P serve him right..

I have another idea for the next film.. If we can.. We can make a sequel for the film that we just made.. The idea is this:

since im killed.. somebody has to take my place as the bad guy right? so.. I think my brother would do the job.. since he might wanna take part too.. The same thing happens.. You're still a bodyguard? I think.. and a botched deal happens. Same thing.. At another location of course.. You chase after my brother.. He runs like hell into the same multi-storey carpark.. POV camera comes in.. at 4th floor.. The camera swings around as though you are searching around for my brother.. Then you realise that the place is the same place where you killed me.. Flashback scene.. camera orbits around you.. before stopping facing you.. with me standing behind you.. camera focuses on you.. You turn around very quickly.. and instead my brother is standing there.. a sniper takes a shot at you.. You dodge and take cover..but the bullet hits your leg. My brother disappears and wait for you to die....  then through deception, you take out the sniper (me/syakir?) at the far end.. he comes out.. EPIC GUNFIGHT!! Which of course.. He dies. You win.. you walk away.. limping.. =D So.. hows dat??

OK.. If gunfight is out of the way.. Then how about martial arts? Same confrontational thing.. just that it is with other weapons.. not guns.. Maybe with Sticks? If it is with sticks.. Then i'll step into the fray.. cos i luv sticks! =D Um.. anyway... There will be a fight scene in which we have to utilise close unarmed combat.. Maybe the film starts with a snatching thing.. Then i run like hell.. Parkour scene.. Then finally dead end.. Then mortal combat!!! =DD

oh yeah.. then the confrontational scene for the first idea.. Is when he comes out and say.. Remember this? then he shows my nickel-plated P22.. sniper shot fired... you dodge.. hit leg..superficial wound.... you take cover.. My brother will be using a Dual guns.. One is my P22, the other is his Golden P22.

So... YAY!! New idea!! Maybe we can make an MV too... A love story kind of.. But we need and Actresss!!!!! WHERE'S  OUR ACTRESSS?!?! Oh.. we dun have one..

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Kok Hean.

Hi Kok Hean.

I know this is random.

But from randomness comes innovation.

Though you visited only for once.

I feel that its right if i include you in.

You are many persons in one.

You are the only person who sees me and run.

but yet, you are the other person who can make me laugh.

Though i'll say you have a short fuse sometime.

You are still an awesome friend.

A funny person, 

Though random.

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YAY!! HI! HI!! HI!!! HI!!! I finally know how Cameron looks like.. She has a brother who looks like me when i was younger!!! =DD Though i now noe her.. I dun think i can find her in the school.. I tried so hard.. But to no avail.. =DD Maybe we should stay as pen pals.. =\

WAAH.....

Todae's really random... I dunno what to do now.. FILMING!!! ARGH..... These few daes very boring because im not spammed by Cam... ARGH........................ Hello? Hllo? Anybody there? WARGH! I feel very bored sia.. Dunno what to do other than sleep.. Eat.. wake up...

I NOE!! DESIGN!! URGH!!... When are we gonna have movies again?? T_T Never went movie or anything... Supposed to go.. but nvr go.. GArgh.... HELLO DAFFODIL!! HOW ARE U??!? <3!! URgh.. Im too bored... Play SA also not up to my previous standard.. Not up to Strenveloci. My legend.

Strenveloci is another of my character.. He uses K2 to fight and is famous for his mp5.. Leagion? just a shadow of time bygone..

Um... Im bored.. So.. Lets ask you.. You my readers... Hows your dae? Whats your dae like? What did you do todae?? I did nothing.. URgh....................
ARGH!!

ARGGH!H!!

PWNED!!
Next Poem dedicated to another of my known readers.

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Wei Keong.

Wei Wei!

Are you there?

I know you are.

We met three years before.

In NCC. 

In the Annual Camp.

You were very small then and you were ridiculed..

You always try to go with the flow.

No matter what happens.

I decide to become your friend when i saw that you can endure.

Unlike many others who are supposedly strong.

Your greater strength lies in you can see.

What others cant.

You can think. 

when others cant.

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YAY!! POEM!!

Fun dae filming!

I had a really fun dae filming with Fiz & Syakir!! =D The first short film im ever in!! and the first action film they ever made... Finally.. I get to show my face.. =DD Im photo shy, so i dun really put my photos up on my blog or on FB. Hi Cam!! Finally you'll know who i am!! I hope you wont run away because of my looks!! =DD

Now recruiting anybody who can help in the filming. I think we can have a shatter films + Smedia film crew shot. =D WE need many people who can help us. The director and producer and me.. we were the actors... Im what? Im the Action Choreographer and Technical Advisor on Guns!! Im the prop producer too... And the cleaner too.. And..Actor.. =DDDD Im everything!! Fiz is everything too!! syakir is everything too!! =DD

Next time, we film another action film... Probably with some light parkour stunts.. Wall climbing is out of my league.. I can only jump.. grab wall.. fall down.. I cant climb up..T_T Wall run also impossible.. I think if we wanna really make the film awesome.. we must train ourselves up too.. So... FIZ!!! Lets go running next week!! We run from my house to upper seletar.. and back.. around 4 klicks... then we raise the bar after one month... We run from opss to Sembawang park.. and back around 8 klicks.. !!! WE ARE RUNNING A MARATHON!! I think if we really achieve that level of running.. Then we will be on par with Ahmad.. He is the greatest athlete i ever personally met in my life.. His love of sports and his sportsmanship is greater than any other sportsman.. He is also a very great and helpful person though he was playful in the past.. =DD

I believe that to be a person you wanna be.. Tell yourself. nothing is impossible. Tell yourself.. I believe!!
Then when somebody asks you. Say, I never believed that i will be. Because i know i will be!

SA!! Anticipate Sudden Attack. Anticipate my awesome screenies and the tag team between me and Fiz.

Ok.. since this is near the 100th post.. Might as well start posting the surprise.

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Hafiz.

Hafiz,

Yes, be very surprised.

Be very very surprised.

This is the surprise im giving to all of you.

I met you and became great friends with you.

When i first told you.

"Hey Hafiz! You got play SA?"

From them on.

We became Brothers in Arms.

In SA..

In Life..

We even agreed that we will stay in touch.

Even when we are no longer the same.

You changed much.

You changed very much.

You tried to prove yourself.

And you did.

You didnt stand up and face the oppressor.

But you kept your peace.

In case you didnt know.

To me, that is not just a man.

That is the greater man.

The magnaminous.

The benevolent.

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=DD Surprised? You should be!  You noe why i say you're the greater man than him? Its because from what i learnt in Lit. The womanly man is the one trying to prove himself through the display of individual prowess. The one who does not understand the true meaning of Man. Man is not just macho or powderful. It is being Human. Being understanding and being sensitive to people. It is understanding why people try to thumb you down. It is understanding that you're much greater above them. You speak through long term Actions rather than short term Words. People who try to thumb others down are hypocrites when they say others are. They try to be critics while not being a critic of themselves. Those are the ones who will never become a Man. Neither will they become a Human.  SO.. Be good to yourself and your wife/GF or..your kids? =DD

MAC, can i just leave it and like get it out of my life?

My uncle wants me to go for a Adam Khoo course to teach me how to be a leader. He wants me to go for a English tuition at Yio Chu Kang. Roots they call it. I want to go for the compre skill tuition. I have to go for NYP attachment on 15 nov - 22 nov. cannot skip.. Still got work shadowing dun even noe if im in or not or what time it is. They never tell me. They never told me anything. MAC. Im afraid i have to drop out. Since i aint doing anything that needs doing and i feel like im alone and i am not contributing. And they inform me at the last minute. Like todae, When im like 2 km away playing soccer..

*Sms ring tone* SHIT!! AFTER MY MUM CALL!! I GK LEH!! *off phone* *break time* *check phone* Siti? *checks message* OH DAMM!

In the end i never go. Checking all the times.. There are more than 2 clashes. MAC will clash with NYP. MAC if i never go, then im irresponsible. NYP, if i never go, Im also irresponsible. then.. The council thingy, 28 Dec, a whole dae thing. Got NCC training, Im the admin, But i have to go for it. Is this what Afiq felt when he was the admin specialist? He is my model that i follow. His commitment is there, though not as obvious. I wish i can be as good an Admin as him.

On the NCC board, My name is not there. Im not selected for any courses.

You know what this means? This means that im no longer needed and i am now an Outcast. The timetable Mr Goh put up seems screwed up. There is no timetable, We dun even noe what the firetruck we are supposed to do. The cadets dunno what the hell they need to do. And the NCOs are at a lost and we are to blame for not taking initiative. Nobody call me to tell me what i should tell Mr Goh, Even if i got tell him, He wouldnt put anything of that sort on the board, just some friggin basic info.

Somebody said before that if we dunno for what firetrucking reason we have to do something, then we would not firetrucking do it.

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Forgo.

Forgo, 

a strong word.

Not as strong as Forsake.

Neither is it as strong as Forgive.

I can forgo what you've done to me.

I can forgo what you've said to me.

I can forgo how you reacted to me.

But,

I can neither forgive nor forget,

That you hated me and you pushed me away.

But i am willing to forsake myself if you'll forgive me.

For i never meant to forget you.

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Im tired, yes, Im tired, dun expect anything funny now. This is a time when i feel like killing myself and jumping into the river and jumping of the cliff. To cover myself over the head with a blanket.

I declare that from now on, I shall not have anything to do with her. I shall not go for her, neither shall i try to take her from someone else. I shall treat her as per normal like i should. Like before, Like in the future.

Jason.

Im depressed...............................................

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Is it because i got a headache? Is it because i didnt come school to play catching? Is it because i didnt see my friends? Is it because i never come for DnT? Is it because im almost late for Lit? Is it because i dunno what the fish im supposed to do? Is it because it is too late? Is it because im gonna die? Is it because im confused? No. Im depressed.. Its because i am. Nobody may know why i am depressed cos i dunno myself. I dunno why i am depressed.. Maybe its really because im tired of struggling to control the cadets.. Or just that i think my effort to maintain ncc's standard is futile..

I dun have much to write todae, Wished i can play catching with you guys again. It had been a fun time.. Sometimes i get heartburn.. Sometimes my throat feels like it caught fire, Sometimes i felt like i vomitted blood.. sometimes i felt paralysed or something.. Maybe soon my time is up.. My head's going haywire these few days.. When can we play again?

Tomorrow, morning got lit, then.. SS.. Then after that, if God let me, let Mr Tan not catch me and keep me back.. Let me go home to prepare to watch movie with my friends, I think after all these, if i got money left, i'll use them to go Homefix and buy some paint. I need paint to beautify my P22.. This i must do before i die.. =D My dream hobby is modification and creation of guns. Guns that protect humanity, Not destroy it. I have alot of ideas drawn out and dimensions written. But they cant be fulfilled because i never studied gunsmithing.

I hope that if i die, The world shall not mourn for me. They shall forget me and live on with their lives, They shall treat me as just another guy who died on Earth. I dont wish to be a burden to anyone or a symbol of sadness to anyone and everyone. I wish to be a symbol of inspiration and a pioneer of "Never Say Die"

I believe that to Die Hard, you gotta Live Free. So.. I shall Live Free and Die Hard.

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To date.

To date, 

I forgot how many girls i had fallen for.

I forgot how much i hated being rejected.

I forgot how many times i got rejected.

People say such wounds never heal.

But its because they never try to make it heal.

You're my salve.

You're my life.

no matter how scarred i am.

No matter how depressed i become.

Thinking of you just keeps me going.

Since you shined for me and brought light into my life.

Please let me light up your life too.

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I wish to say this to anyone and everyone, 

I'm Sorry if i did you wrong. People makes mistakes in their lives. A man once said, "To suppress our desires, is to suppress the very thing that makes us human." If i offended you in anyway, I hope you'll forgive me since i wasnt using my brains.

Im tired of it all.. Im tired of struggling to keep myself awake while writing my blog.. Everyday, writing my blog is a brainwrecker, I have to try to make it funny and intrigueing and random and whatnot.. 

Adios and Have a Very Nice Day.

The good ol' times....=")

The good ol'times.. So happy.. Todae i played catching with you guys.. YOU AWESOME GUYS!! and GIRL!! =DD It made me really happy todae cos it reminded me of what i did when i was in primary school.. Apart from a Daily Torture by Bullies and Teachers.. I specialised in Camoflage.. I mean really..

When i was younger and playing catching, Like now, I cannot run, cannot sprint and i am slower.. So i usually get to end the game as the catcher... (Siti you made me a catcher!! *rolls chair* Catch. Me: ARGH!!!) So.. I am like very tired of running about and catching nobody.. so i devised a method of catching them.. I stood waiting in the bushes, and when somebody unlucky passes by, i sprint out and catch them.. It was well worth the wait as they come looking for me when a certain time passes.. =DD

The only way i could catch someone or avoid capture is to outsmart them.. And to think ahead.. =DDD HAHAHAH! SITI!! THE SAME METHOD COULDNT WORK TWICE!! I KNEW YOU'RE GONNA HIDE AT WHERE HAFIZ HID!! =DD But nice try.. I tried to hide there.. but my head is too big..haha... WK was chased by me the whole time... I WANNA KILL HIM!! SLAPPING ME SO HARD ON MY BACK!!! IM GONNA KILL YOU!!!

Argh.. I need salonpas too.. My knee's actually still hurts alot.. Where can i get them??.... HAFIZ!! LETS GO FILMING AFTER MY LEG HEALS!! =DD TEACH ME HOW TO USE A CAMERA PLEASE!! I HAVE A STEADY HAND AND I LIKE TO PICK UP THINGs. UM.. I mean.. USE THE TRIPOD LIKE MR SYAKIR!! =DD ALSO... I LIKE TO ACT WITH YOU!! I WANNA BE THE BAD GUY!! I WANNA TRY TO BE THE BAD GUY!!! I DUN LIKE TO BE THE GOOD GUY!!

I GOT A STORY!! YOU WANT?? I NOE YOU WANT!! =D The story goes like this..
Bad guy snatches Milk tea from good guy.. Good guy drops the rest of the milk tea.. Milk tea spills.. Bad guy runs.. Good guy angry.. Chase after bad guy while screaming.. MEEUUUUK!!! TTTEEEAAAHHH!!! Bad guy vaults over rail.. Good guy jumps over rail.. Bad guy find dead end.. Fight ensues, BAD GUY PWNED!

Ok.. I noe i sux at story.. But in case you ask.. I think the milk tea would be good as a running gag.. Something that appears in almost every video you make and something that is often ridiculous and funny.. Like maybe.. Milk tea getting snatched.. A far angle shot with the camera blocked by a bit of the milk tea cup.. with the milk tea blurred.. Argh.. Its up to you whether you wanna make it a comedy type running gag.. since the videos we make are gonna be random.. Lets make it funny.. =D

WK!! IF YOU ARE READING THIS!! READ THIS CAREFULLY!!! The sandpaper you need can be bought from Homefix at AMK hub. While the files and random stuffs can be found in the same shop from which you wanna buy the P22..

Oh yeah.. I think i should post this cute guy.. This cute guy aka my baby cousin just passed his 1st year birthdae!! =DD He's very very cute.. He responds very fast compared to other babies and he loves to smile, alot..

Hafiz you got see this baby before right? =DD


ARGh.. Should i paint my gun Dark Earth or should i paint my gun Military Green?

AIYAH AIYAH AIYAH!! I asked shirree thru sms, "Yo Shirree. Jason Here, Tmr Heritage Trip i no need to go right?" She replied: "Need..everyone need to go..its 4 whole NCC." so i replied: "OK Thnx So much!" Then she replied: "Welcome :D"
Weirdest conversation i ever had.. =DD Other than Janzy.. Nobody else actually sms back Welcome.. =DDD FUNNY!!

Urgh.. Can any of you guys help me tell Mr Tan that i cannot go for tomorrow? Please help me inform Zara and/or Ms Xu!! Thnx!!

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I see trees of Green.

I've seen blue birds fly,

I've seen trees of green..

I've seen red roses too..

That blooms for me and you..

I've seen the colours of the rainbow..

I've seen the skies beyond..

I've seen half the world..

Yet i've never seen anything like you..

To say that you're more beautiful than roses is an understatement..

For nothing is ever quite as lovely as you..

Neither is anything as cheery as you.. 

But yet, why?

Why did you put me down?

Perhaps you didnt.. 

Perhaps i did..

But i now know,

You are far too much for me.. 

Too great for me..

I am too undeserving.

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This girl i like before.. Hehe.. I tell you.. At Prom Nite, If she wears a long dress and takes her glasses off and put on some make up.. I think even her "brothers" would fall head over heels.. Only thing.. As WK says, is attitude... Character not bad.. But attitude got problem.. XXDD But well.. Its not my place to say or comment anything about her.. I cant get it why he hates her so..  Seriously.. I know its the attitude.. But she wouldnt care about what you say.. Only when something big happens will she actually change..

"words without actions are merely thrown to the wind." so.. Instead of saying all those things about her.. I suggest try making friends with her and talk to her more.. Maybe she has some problems we dont know? Like you sometimes in deep thought we also dunno what the fish you're thinking..  Its better to make an enemy a friend than a friend out of an enemy.. there are friends who can hate you forever.. But there are also enemies who could repent. As long as you're magnaminous and accepting.. You've got a whole legion of friends behind you.. Including me.. Leagion. =D

I just hate sitting on the f***ing fence.. Though i can say i dun like her much now... i believe people will change when the time comes.

Should i do this? Or should i try that..

I've bought a second gun.. still P22.. I wanna try to modify that as well.. But since im modifying the polymer frame directly, there run a risk of the paint getting too thick and flowing within the mechanism. But this is a reasonable risk, no pain no gain. So i thought of disassembling the whole model, but i fear i may cock up and destroy it in the process. I think i'll try, but right now, i am caught between two paint scheme, please help me choose.
This? P22 Navy Blue?

Or this? P22 Dark Earth?

Or this? P22 Military Green?

Dark Earth looks more vibrant and contrasting to the colour of the P22.. So personally i would prefer that. But what do you think? My readers?

OK!! ENOUGH WITH THE FORMAL TALK ORDY!!! HAHAHA! What? you think im gonna make this blog into something as boring as chemistry? No offense 'cher. =D Chemistry is actually awesome.. Just that the atoms and molecules.. Turns me off.. No.. I wont get straight...A-s just by looking at the screen.. I know what you're thinking.. Dont think dirty!! you're not that kinda person.. Um.. I think its just me..XD!!

Hi! Hafiz! Hi Wei Keong! Hi Matin!! Hi Fuzzy!! Hi Siti! Hi me! HI HI HI! Kok Hean is spamming each and everyone one of us with. Hi. i think he's like those liar corporations.. Make fake account on MSN and say Hi to each and everybody they meet.. When you ask them, who are you? They say: Hi! then bla bla bla...

Once an automated sender in MSN talk to me. The conversation goes like this.

Me: Woooh.. Someone wanna tok to me!
Computer: Hi!
Me: *cautious* Who r u?
Computer: Hi!
ME: O_O?
Computer: Hi! would you like to see my naked photos?
Me: Wait.. what the freak..
Computer: May i know your name?
Me: Who are you?
Computer: May i know your name?
Me: WHO ARE YOU??!
Computer: Oh.. I love you.
Me: -ROFLMAO-

10 minutes later... I was still laughing at the stupid messages being spammed.. It's like im toking to a wall and the wall is toking back in another language in another topic!! XDXD I know.. It sounds gross.. But seriously.. Be aware of such automated senders.. Asking them who r u repeatedly is an easy way to know as they never answers your questions.

URGh.. Todae didnt manage to play catching cos Fuzzy wasnt here.. Walao.. Fuzzy not here super boring.. Oh.. WK got owned by hafiz cause he pointed the laser in Fiz's eyes.. Then all hell breaks loose.. Hafiz got angry and began to own WK.. =DD UH.. I dunno what the hell im thinking these daes.. I sort of gotten mute after awhile, i cannot really tok to people like Fuzzy, matin, siti, dwayne, stephen, wilson, and whoever there is in the class.. Its sort of, when i wanna say it, my words get stuck and not a word come out.. What is wrong with me? Maybe i have throat cancer?? HAHA.. touch wood.. *Touches Tree* Um...

Oh.. We went AMK hub a few dae's ago and we had fun walking around and going cash converters.. After that we went up the hub to play at the prize claw machine.. I bet with Hafiz that if i ever managed to claw a toy which is like.. 1/500 probability, i'll give it to a girl, any girl... I didnt managed to get it though.. Or else i'll have to give it to who? my mum? my grandma? my auntie? I cant give it to Yong Ting cos i not so close to her.. Give it to Rachel? I dun think she would like it.. I KNOW!! GIVE IT TO SHIRREE!! =DDD Nah.. so we decided that if we ever ever win a prize we shall give it to..... a friend whose name starts with S.. =DD NYAHAHAHHAHAHAH! im using your laughter!! =D NYAHAHAHAH!..

*The above things that happened is all true, we did bet that we will give the prize to you if we ever win one cos we think you like soft toys and because we are guys and we like guns (Joking..)..and because its almost impossible..=D We = The three musketears, Ablos (Me) Pablos ( HAfiz) and Ramundos (WK).. I think i made the names up..What? Whose Matin? Zapdos.*

Argh.. The machine.. I have to be very lucky to play the game. and win.

YAH YAH YAH.. Wataver.. YEEah.. I speak really funneh.. Wataver you wount, i cand get it for yo.. URgh.. I.. Feel.. very funny...

Did i tell you guys about the instructor at NCC who is really funny? When he is happy.. He will say to the class.. Waaaah.. I very Sexcited leh.. I love you all veray deep-deep.. He's like.. OOH.. >=) like as though he wants to eat us up.. -Shivers- ._.

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Knowing.

Knowledge is power.

Many said that before.

Love is strength.

Many said that before.

Knowledge is destruction.

Many said that too.

Love is weakness.

Thousands said before in unity.

True.

Love makes you weak.

But yet it makes you ever stronger than you really are.

Just like knowledge kills.

It is the same thing that teaches us what kills and what do not.

There are always two sides of a coin,

Like the Genius and the Madman.

The Priest and the Fanatic.

Life and Death.

Angels and Demons.

The world needs balance. Which is LOVE.

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WOOOH!! REACHING THE 100 POST SOON!! A BIG SURPRISE IS AHEAD!! =DD