"At the touch of love, everyone becomes a poet."

Monday, December 27, 2010

mp5 full feature showcase.. =D

ok! How this? im rushing.. so.. no words spoken.. somehow i dun feel safe going tmr.. knowing full well the dangers of going home late.. =D

ok adios amigo..

Good nite.

i've been wanting to say this for a while now..
I just hope you're listening.
I just hope that whatever i say is not the wind blowing at your ears..
I just hope it'll be the sweetest thing you'll ever hear..

I just truly wish you a Merry Merry Christmas.
But on top of that.

A very good nite!
A friend once told me i should reply wish someone well when she wishes me good nite.

I just hope you'll wish me nites too.
 =D Nites! <3

Saturday, December 25, 2010

By the request of two of my fiends..

I mean FRIENDS! I decide to update my blog just for todae.. =D There's nothing really to update abt.. but i'll just show some pictures of the Ak 101 i worked on... Just a simple paint job..

Nothing really extraordinary..
Dun really noe why the picture's so weird.. dun care also..

Oh.. these few daes got me aching... doing parkour with wk and fiz near his house.. and playing with cute cats! we named a few who dared to play with us.. (cos most of them are scared of humans.. T_T) Sally is a cute cat... Cally is a cutie who loves to bite me..Cookie is the Tabby who loves to sleep.. brownie is the little kitten who loves to yawn.. =DD

I feel good.

I feel good when you're there..
But i'll probably feel better if you're by my side..

I wish that you'll not be plagued by problems..
I wish that i'll stop being a problem for you..
But i still wish for your happiness..

Merry Christmas!

Felis Navidad to all my fiends! Fizzy, wk, siti..

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Its been such a long long time since i updated my blog..

These few daes was quite fun as i went out with Hafiz, WK, syakir and his cousin farhan?.. Looking around singapore for the best location for a MV we're making this week.. Yesterdae we met up with the indonesian Andi to start filming.. He's quite a nice guy though his accent's pretty strong.. He says ours is also very strong.. =D

Anyway yesterdae we had several takes at clarke quay.. with hafiz venting his anger on the friggin reflector as andi didn't know what hafiz was saying.. XDD It was the first time that we ever collaborated with youtubers from other countries.. maybe next time we will have youtubers from america? europe? russia? maybe even from the north or south pole! =DD

Um.. todae i sorta skipped the production cos my mum wouldn't let me out cos no money.... Hopefully tomorrow i can if i fork out some of my money.. T_T

I've seen many beautiful girls while we're out on the streets.. when we see these girls we will tell each other.. Panas!! then NOT so beautiful girls we will say.. Long kang.. =DD  some of them are really pretty.. but sadly.. They are see no touch.. can see, cannot touch.. T_T


To me you're more than just a crush.
To me you're more than someone i love.
To me you're a paragon.

A perfect ideal person.
To others you might not be.
But to me.
You're definitely.


Friday, December 17, 2010


Sorry sorry sorry sorry yande yande yande yande... =D I was too focused on my mp5 modification... and bs.. too... I cant really say that blogging is my hobby now.. =D Now im gonna go and paint my ak camo.. =D

Something for you guys to see...

Any comments?


Whenever you look at me..
I feel crushed..
Whenever i talk to you..
I feel like crashing...

The only time i can talk to you..
Is when you're no longer my crush..
When you're no longer the love of my life..
When you're just a friend.. 

But for now..
I much rather enjoy not talking to you.. =D
Silence is golden..


Monday, December 13, 2010



OK.. BE SHOCKED!! MUHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!! OK.. I have nothing to tok abt..

Bye bye.

Its so simple a word..
Yet its so complicated in life. 

If only i can understand you.
Love is not just a single word.
It is three.


Sunday, December 12, 2010

A need to dominate.

I sometimes couldn't get it.. Why some people just like to dominate others or control others? Is it because they fear what the weak can achieve if they turn strong? OR is it a sense of insecurities.. Are the truly weak the one who tries to control? Or the one who need not control? Some people are just really that "fake" dominator.. They are really weak inside.. True that nobody is perfect.. I maybe a dominator too... But i noe that and im trying to change.. But i dun understand what is it that needs to be changed..

I just realised there's alot of people with anti-social disorder.. People who have anti-social disorder are often males.. They try VERY hard to dominate and control others.. They try VERY hard to keep the "weak" from going over them.. They TRY VERY HARD to be superior.. They are those you call "jerks" Those who TRIES VERY HARD TO BECOME MORE MAN. So much they become insensitive jerks..  I guess its enough with the ranting...  Can anyone tell me why some people like the power of domination? I hate myself for being a dominator... I feel like a jerk when i tell people to do something they wouldn't like.. But i cant stop it.. Wonder if anybody can just tell me why..

OK... BACK TO SOMETHING LIGHTER... YOYOYOOYOYOYYOYOYOYOOOO SISTA!!.... I got an idea for your fanfic.. more in depth actually rather than just a title.. =D There's this guy who goes to work every morning.. Boring boring work.. Then recently a girl starts to make an appearance at the bus stop.. The guy somehow likes the girl.. then they....become closer friends... until one day the girl suddenly disappears... urgh... im bad at stories.... i dunno how to continue ordy....anyway hope you'll look at this and hopefully give you more ideas... I wonder why im doing this? Maybe cos im bored? or is it because i want to make something out of that idea.... dun mind me.. =D

HMMM... Im getting bored talking through the blog... Im getting bored only having one friend updating blogs...


Top of the line..
Higher than the mountains..
Greater than the seas..

Can i ever be someone fit enough to be named Paramount?

Or can i be someone fit enough to be named Paragon?

For IM_Paramount.
That is my name.

Saturday, December 11, 2010

a kiss to build a dream on..

=D =D =D

Im in LOVE!! There's this really pretty girl who is really pretty who is really kind.. She is really perfect!! Ok.. Im just joking.. I've been staying at home until im gonna melt.. I never seen any girl at home except my mom and my god-sister.. I feel very very very very empty... I envy those who have someone they like.. I don't have one.. But i don't feel anything.. which is good..

Like the love quote from above... I'm not in love.. therefore now my poem sucks.. anyway.. I KNOW WHAT YOU CAN NAME YOUR FANFIC SITI! "LOVE IN THE BUS STOP"!!! Ok.. Im just joking.. I realised im only talking to you through the blog... cos everyone else stopping bloggin ordy..T_T

WE're gonna do a MV for an Indonesian band!! I think.... I imagine.. a story.. abt a guy who fell in love with a girl who he will always see at the bus stop...

A dream..

I dreamed a dream..
Of you with me..
Of us..
Of Bliss and Harmony..

I imagined a life..
With you..
With our families..
With our hopes and wishes...

But i realised..
That in the end.
It is just wishful thinking..
It is just a dream..

If anybody asks.. Yes, these poems are from myself.

Friday, December 10, 2010

long time bygones...

listening to louis armstrong's song.. I realised that there weren't many music that could really convey emotions like louis armstrong... Perhaps im too caught up by love.. Perhaps now my blog posts are no longer hilarious... because im numbed.. I think i have so many problems.. So much i dun even noe where to start from..But when i wanna start... All those little tiny problems simply disappear...  La Vie En Rose.. Its a nice song.. Somehow it reminds me of true Love...  i recommend listening to it though i don't really expect anyone to do so..

Im just a bit tired.. Don't tell me... I have to search for a new target? Maybe its high time i do something about my empty heart.. Its time i go out to the streets and ask a girl for her name... Sometimes im tempted to do that.. People in singapore would mock me for being so cheap.. They would laugh at me.. But to me.. It is something many lacked.. It is called bravery..

YES! Do something abt the one you like.. Even though for one second you had a crush upon him/her.. Just go straight to his/her face, hug him/her and say I Love You..

WEll... Lets try something funnier.. Its getting boring...

Oh wait.. In blackshot.. Whenever i see a nade flying towards me.. I would scream SHIT! But when i get blasted sky high before i even noe it.. I'll only say.. shit...


To you im probably just another somebody on the road of your life..
But to me.. 
You're a rose by the side of the lonely road..

So pristine..
So pure..
Untouched by time eternal..

I wish you knew how i feel..
I wish you will accept me..
I wish that that moment shall never end.. 

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

I missed alot of post...

Playing too much bs until im neglecting my blog... Siti is right.. the blog is our only friend.. The only friend you talk to and the only friend who'll truly listen to you when no others would..maybe it is because these few daes nothing happened at all... Maybe because im not in school where the fun is...

Sometimes i hate school so much i dun wanna go for it....
Oh.... BTW... I think we need actresses... Shatterfilm crew only got me wk and hafiz... and Smedia..syakir... We need actresses! T_T

Shatterfilms probably embarking upon an episodal film.. Which starrs me and wk as brothers who fights in the end..


I cannot say how fortunate i am..
To have pots of gold and fountains of water..
I cannot say how fortunate i am..
To have people by my side to support me..

But i can say..
O How fortunate i am!
To have you by my side..
To have my love by my side..
To have somebody stand by me forever..
Even unto death..

Love unto Death..

Monday, December 6, 2010

sick again...

for 2 weeks... T_T played bs and made the Ka-bar until i forgot to update my blog.. im sure it doesn't matter to you at all right? who am i lying?  im beginning to think that this blog had been a joke from the start.. a lie.. to cover up more lies.. I like somebody so much it edges on Love and Hate.. This blog is the nail stuck to me.. to stop me from edging over to hate.. This blog reminds me of what made her beautiful.. Who am i lying.. Nobody is looking at this blog.. Im talking to myself all the way.. Nobody really cared.. They just replied cos they had to.. Cos they are good people...
But i can safely say my love for her was never a lie.. .It wasn't even a fact to begin with.. How can it be a lie?

Sometimes i think.. What if i die.. Will anybody really care? Im probably just a blight on earth to some.. Possibly a tool to most.. Unlikely a friend to many..If i die.. I hope im among the thousands.. No glory unto death.


a reversal of a word..
The Antonym of Love is Hate..
The synonym of Love is also Hate...

You either Love someone forever or you Hate someone forever...
But when you truly learnt to Love..
You have learnt to hate.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Aiyh.. Im sick.. Really really sick..

for two daes i was so sick the only thing i could do was lay in bed.. Finally now im feelin better.. I missed two blog post entirely...aiyah.. damm it.. The councillors went to HK.. Now im all alone in Singapore.. I probably took the bulk of the illness for them..T_T

My brother is always teasing me abt Cam... Are we really that "too" close? Should i like.. edge away?? The irony.. She is close to me.. But she is actually really far away... So close yet so far.. damm it.. Why is it so much like a love quote?.. NO!! I made a vow not to touch the people whom i call my siblings.. =D But what if you have two siblings who fight with each other? Do i denounce one of them? OR should i patch them up in a way?? What if the first thing they do is claw at each other's neck when they see each other? I don't wish to lose my friend who is close to me.. but i also don't wish to lose my old friend.. Sometimes i wish that i can disappear..


Clouded by my judgement..
Clouded by my eyes..
Clouded by my visions of what is pretty..
I am clouded by Love..

But is Love really pretty? 
Is Love really that powerful?
Is Love something we can hold and never let go? 

I Love You.. Is really something hard to say.

Monday, November 29, 2010

Once upon a time... There was the Royal Malay Regiment.

If you ask a American boy who is his hero. He might say it is Superman. If you ask a Briton boy who is his hero. He might say it is Tom Cruise or Nicholas Cage. If you ask a Chinese Boy who is his hero. He might say it is Bruce Lee or Jackie Chan. But if you ask me. I will say it is Leftenan Adnan & the Royal Malay Regiment.

Why? Because they stood their ground on Bukit Chandu when the Japanese came invading. They stood their ground though they're were from Malaya. They stood their ground and died fighting for the country that wasn't even theirs. They died for Singapore. Those are my heroes and what i want to be. I don't want to be Superman or Tom Cruise or any powerful martial artist. I want to be a Human who will never say die. They held it though they were abandoned. Leftenan Adnan encouraged them to fight on and they did. They died but in glory and valour. Thats why my name is Jason Yong Valore. Valore for Valour.

They possess greater gifts than many celebrities. They possessed the gifts of Bravery.

Yeah.. Thats how much im infatuated with the legends of the Malay Regiment. I say legend not because it was not true. I say Legend because they did something nobody else will do. They did something which will crumble a grown man to dust.

Hafiz.. If we ever get a budget to make an Action Film from NYP. Lets make a film of the Battle Of Bukit Chandu.

Anyway.. LETS SHOW YOU MY PICTUAS!! OF MYSELF HOLDING MY GUN!! DUN THINK DIRTY!! I held my gun to show the scale of the gun. It is a gigantic sniper even for me.

Dun mind the second picture, i just thought it looked cool.. Thanks to my DEARIE BROTHER!! =D
I like this gun!! This gun is awesome!! Im just gonna paint it urban camo and it will be even moar awesAM! =D


Since that day.
Since that hour.
Since that minute.
Since that fraction of a second.

When you talked to me when no others would..
When you cared about me when nobody would..
When you told me to be strong..

I fell into a deep ravine..
I was consumed by love..
I was consumed by you..

But since that day you told me to leave..
It hurt me so so much..
So much that my heart bleeds..
So much that even today it is bleeding..
So much that i lost myself..

But don't blame yourself..
Blame me.
Blame me O silly me..
Blame the idiot who sought love.


Saturday, November 27, 2010

I bought the last remaining M6 sniper rifle!!

It was the last one.. and im damn lucky.. after tomorrow tuition.. Im probably gonna buy white paint and some cable clips.. Cable clips to make the plastic slide lock like wad wk suggested.. and the white paint as pat of the Arctic/Urban camoflage.. like this:
I really like the sniper rifle.. I think i'll really appreciate it if someone could just buy a scope for me on my birthday from black-tactical.. I guess nobody will give it to me.. T_T nonody loves me!! T_T

Im pretty sure i can do something..

Agh.. Tmr got math tuition.. Somehow i feel jittery though my work already finished.. I guess this is the feeling all of us get even when we done our homework.. Always knowing that something is just not right.. =D

V is for victory.. 

V, an alphabet you'll almost never see.
Yet it symbolises the greatest, strongest things..
It is for Victory in War.
It is for Valour against all odds..
And it is for Vigilance in Peace.

It is also for the Vendetta in Vengeance.
V should be used for the greater good.
Not for our personal Vendetta from our Eternal vengeance

Friday, November 26, 2010

Im gonna paint my m6 sniper rifle arctic camo/urban camo.

I like my rifle! Before i sleep i play with my gun.. My gun is fun.. don't think dirty!! i play with my M6 sniper rifle lar! =D Im gonna post a picture of it soon.. This gun i bought from black-tactical currently undergoing brainstorming on how to make the bolt-action work, how to make a magazine and how to make it look friggin awesome.. Like you! Like me! Like you too...Yeah.. I noe.. My awesomness probably put you in complete stupification cos of my awesomest splendour.. so much that you're now speechless right? *winks* =D JKJK!! I wont eclipse your awesomness Matin!

I really cant imagine myself with so much ego that i cant handle.. I'll probably break down on the floor and start irritating everyone.. these few dae's is quite boring.. on FB i drew alot of graffiti's to my sista cameron.. not much talk..On this blog literally everyone stopped posting.. so much that i have no one to make fun of or communicate with..

Also, These few days we didnt have filming.. What a boring week.. Tomorrow going for a tuition.. the end of a series of speeches.. The teacher is really great.. She is somewhat like Ms Xu.. but of course not as awesome as her right? Why am i always using awesome to describe everyone? OH! YOU'RE AWESOME HAFIZ!! YOU'RE AWESOME EVERYONE!! YOU'RE AWESOME ANYONE!! YOU'RE AWESOME WK! You're AWESOME SITI!!... maybe cos you guys are everything to me?.. too bad you guys just disappeared off the surface of earth.. No replies.. Earth calling.. Earth Calling!!


Heartly ever..

You broke my heart..
With a piece of broken shard..
A broken shard of glass..
though it is as flimsy as grass..

Though you broke my heart..
It is heartly enough to stop me..
Heartly enough to kill me..
Heartly ever enough to shatter me..




Thursday, November 25, 2010


I GOT THE GUN!! YES!! Im really happy for getting this gun.. this gun is 1.09 m long and its awesome! Its a pure sniper rifle! Im thinking of painting it with an Urban Camo scheme.. And i think im gonna modify the gun to be bolt-action..Probably adding in a magazine too.. =D

I made myself a scope from the binoculars.. seems like only i am interested in this hobby.. Nobody cares.. Do they? I guess there are limits when it comes to modifying guns.. And my limit is resources.. If anybody can fund e properly, there is no job too big and no job too hard..


Fall comes after summer.
A season of passion and love.
Leaves fall..
They change colours like a heart does.

How i wish summer would last.
so that fall would never ever come.. 


Wednesday, November 24, 2010

I think im gonna buy the gun tomorrow!!

I feel really tired todae, so i'm not gonna say much. Playing blackshot with my friends was fun with skype on.. But them screaming vuilgarities isn't.. My mum was in the room all dae and she hears everything.. And she's telling me to tell them not to say vulgarities.. as if they will listen. She doesn't understand the world of kids that we will grow out of, she doesn't understand the world where vulgarities are used in jest and deathly silence in pure anger. Thats why i was silent during the game.. I am death when i am silent. I'll post the picture of my uncompleted gun.

The second picture is with the functions working, the magazine and the slide lock, currently ejection port not cut open yet..

Forget it.

 Forget it, you don't understand.
No matter how many poems i write,
you don't understand why.

These are all for you.
These are all for you on the day when i tell you.
These are all for you on the day we leave each other.
These are all for you on the day we're fated to meet.

These are all for you. 
Since that day,
and what you said.

The promise. I haven't break it. Yet.

So.. forget about it. Time will tell whether i'll come out victorious, or whether i come out to hang my head.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Im close to reaching my target of $30..

Im gonna buy that M6 on the dae when my brother got time.. 2 daes later? Hopefully on thursdae..Then i can broaden my spectrum of guns.. no longer confined to Pistols... Im certain i have this "fetish" with pistols and sniper rifles.. Maybe since a good set of pistol and rifle is best for a Sniper? I dunno.. I just like how cool and composed these snipers are.. and they seem to have the highest kill count of any single infantry.. There was once a sniper in Finland.. His name was Simo Hayha.. He was nicknamed the White Death by the Red Army.. The Soviet Army. He was borne in 1905.. and he died in 2002. He killed over 500 people using iron sights in the cold and harsh environment.. He would have been the world's best sniper.. especially when he did not used any scope..

"What do you first felt when you shoot someone?"
"The recoil of the gun."

I like guns.. I like them so much i wished i wasn't born in Singapore.. but seeing what they do.. I wish they weren't Wars between people.. I want to design a gun.. A gun that is not meant to kill.. A gun that is meant to protect. This is supposed to be the true purpose of firearms, To protect, to defend, To save lives, not endanger them.

I personally think that it is not the sniper rifle that makes a man a sniper, it is the sniper that makes a gun a sniper rifle, like in the case of Simo Hayha, he didnt need scopes. He made a bolt-action rifle into a Sniper rifle cos he is a real sniper.

Maybe someday. (this is to my friend Cameron.=D)

Maybe someday,
We will meet.
Maybe someday,
We will know each other.

Hopefully someday,
We will know who we truly are.
But before that day,
I hope we will never meet.

For you wouldnt like my face or appearance..
You like what i say and what i do.

Lets just talk,
Shall we? 


I made this poem for her cos when other friends dun care abt me, she does, though she does not know me personally, i feel she also had many life experiences like mine. Though she confessed that she is radically different in real life.. I am too.. This made me bond with her.. Im happy that somebody is like me.. But of course i hope the person i knew on the internet is the same person i will meet.. =D Thanks for being there for me when the going got tough.. =D

Monday, November 22, 2010


Now i noe what to give to a certain person on her birthdae.. no, not you, dun think abt it.. This person i appreciate dearly.. so not you..JKJK!! I appreciate you, whoever you are, my readers. I just watched Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows... Its like a friggin screamer movie.. I shall not say more.. Im not the spoiler type.. Im the spoiler of the car.. oh, you dun get it do you? Nevermind, nobody gets me at all..

HEY GUYS! LOOK WHAT I DID! LOOK AT THIS!! I modified this gun model into having a slide lock, removable magazine but sadly no magazine release, and i haven't cut out the ejection port..i did sand down the toy logo though.. i also engraved some marks on the gun to make some parts stand out.. This gun may sell for around $50 - $60 is i make it commercial.. but i dun think it is gonna happen since i dun have contacts in Black-tactical and that i need it for filmmaking.. Right at this moment.. my brother destroyed the slide lock... by pulling the trigger when it is still in place..the slide flew forward and destroyed the slide lock utterly.. now im fixing it back.. so no photos until i cut out the ejection port which i will do todae midnight.. until 3 am..

Im sometimes really tired and spent after something bad happens.. maybe im actually a perfectionist but i just don't know? I somehow hates people who are bo chap.. dunno why sia.. I feel so robotic and so purpose-driven.. i cannot stop being kan chiong and cannot try to not care abt anything.. The good thing i wish god hasn't given to me is my BIG GREAT AWESOME Sense of responsibility.. I hate it.. It makes me feel guilty when i don't do my duty.. It makes me at a superb disadvantage against bo chap people.. and it generally make me hate myself and hate them.. throwing everything at me cos im deemed "reliable"..

Forgive me.

Forgive me when i say i hate you..
Forgive me when i lie to you.
Forgive me when i say i love you..

Because i cannot love you for after i die..
But i'll love you for all eternity..

Even after the oldest tree withers..
Even after the icebergs melts..
Even after Judgement Day..

I know that my Love will keep you alive..
In My Heart..


I heart you. Who are you?? You're a medic!! You heart me by shocking me with your "electricity" you noe? *winks**winks*.. Arh.. You dun get it.. again..

Sunday, November 21, 2010

i forgot to post again..

Muhahah.. I got nothing to tok abt.. OH yeah.. lets rant about the people on the mrt trains!! There are SOME people who cling to the handle bars for dear life... They dominate the bars like they are pole-dancers... they literally stick their body onto the bar.. i was forced to stand like im drunk.. rocking about and almost falling over..

I forgot to say.. I think i am very happy with myself, not because something good happen.. because i have so many great friends... to name a few.. hafiz, matin, kok hean, fuzzy, wk, siti, cameron.. They're always there for me though i dunno most of them well.. except for hafiz and wk.. They still mean alot to me and i wish to say that since you guys are there for me all the time, lean on me when you cry and beat me if you're angry.. but listen to me if you want some consolation, and i'll listen to you if you ever need me to.

If i tell you im a smoker, i fight, i like to pia jui, and i lie, which one would you believe? 


If i say im flying..
Would you believe in me?
If i say im gonna fly soon..
Would you stop me?

I can only say this, i wont fly no matter what..
Cos you are the one who made me fly.


Friday, November 19, 2010



Oh.. Todae hafiz went early cos of fridae prayers and im left alone to do the blog and various things.. T_T Maybe playing blackshot again later? Im listening to invaders must die on a daily basis..  I hate it when im doing homework at night and something flies past me.. Im even terrified of moths!! T_T

Im sooo gonna buy an M6 sniper rifle and modify it to have scope, bolt carrier group, Moving bolt, Removable magazine, modular barrel (means can change length) silencer for barrel.. And overall able to be disassembled.. Its gonna be real hard, Its gonna cost over $50 but it is gonna be worth it.. =D If my budget is $50, i think i can.. If i really make it.. then i can sell a $50 for around $150? Nah.. I think i wont sell it at all, Im gonna use it in filming..

I think there will be a surprise for 3A1 next year..  Wait for it!! =D


Im robotic, 
I think i know that.
Im robotic,
Hell.. who doesnt know that?

Am i Human?
You know that. 
Because you made me human when i fell for you..
Im no longer that clumsy tin can filled with glue.. 

I am Human, all because of you.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Don't give up before you even start! Seriously!!

Don't give up before you even start!! I made that mistake and i live to regret it!! I'll rather kill myself than wait for another chance that may not come again you noe? so ONWARD AND PERSEVERE! thats our school motto right? Add me in Skype! JasonYongValore. WHEeee........

Ahahahhahaha... I hate tomorrow.. Still have to go NYP.. T_T Im tired of it.. Later playing blackshot with sam and HAfiz and more people..

Lemme tell you about this girl i liked before..She isn't really pretty to others but she is beautiful to my eyes.. She doesnt really care about me.. She wears glasses.. and if she wears something really nice. lets say a dress and takes of her glasses and wear make up.. even her "Kaki" would fall head over heels.. Yes she is that ordinary.. But if she dresses up.. She is beyond extraordinary..I think you noe who that is.. The girl i told you guys before was the one who hurt me real bad in primary school.. This girl is the one i didnt even bother going for.. The girl i gave up on before i even tried.. The irony.. How can i give up on something without even trying? Maybe im gonna start going for her in Sec 4.. When i dun look like a BFG.. =D

Love you no matter what.

I'll love you no matter what happens.. 
I'll love you even if the sky tumbles and fall..
I'll love you even if the land crumbles beneath my feet..
I'll love you even to the ends of the earth..

I'll love you even for all eternity..
I'll love you just because I do.

Ever notice something?
It all begins with an "I Love You."


I feel so not happy todae.. hey.. when did i ever feel happy before? XDXD!! Well i guess i am happy everydae cos atleast got someone willing to tok to me and accept me. I dun need to please everyone do i? Im content with just the three friends i have.. My world's so small..In my world, there's only Hafiz, Wk, Syakir, Fuzzy, Matin, and of course you Siti.. T_T Im lame, dun mind me..

Tomorrow need go NYP early in the morning.. Argh... I should treat it as an experience and not a boring thing to do.. What a dae! I went AMK at around 3.30.. We came back to yishun at around 6.30.. We played some claw games at the Cinema at AMK Hub.. hoping we could claw something.. to give someone.. Who? You. Um.. anyway.. OH!! We found a pair of gloves priced at $15 from Liang Seng at Cash Converters thanks to Hafiz's Keen eyes.. Thnx Yo! HAHAH.. and hafiz was telling me DUN BUY THAT MICROPHONE!! ITS NOT  GOOD BRAND!! I bought it anyway...and we tested it out at Hafiz's place.. and it was much better than his!! XDXD!! You never noe if you never try right? Ok, back to the point..After going AMK, we went Hafiz's place to do editing.. and we had a LOT OF FUN.. Editing.. Finally edit finished. We ended process on the render part.. Then we do again.. And hafiz ensured us.. GOT! GOT SAVE!.. Then boom.. come out.. EH HAFIZ?? WHY THE PART I EDIT NOT IN HAR?! den we have to edit again somedae.. never mind.. we can edit with the sound too..

I noticed i never write his story leh.. When i was younger and went cycling with my brother.. We were robbed..

There was this indian guy who asked my bro for his phone.. HE lend it to him.. Then he dun wanna return back.. When my brother was pushed down and kicked.. I was panicking.. IM FRIGGIN USELESS.. I ran with the bike between my legs.. before abandoning it and running after my brother who was running after them.. My brother was shoutin at me "JASON! GET INTO THE LIFT NOW! GET INTO THE LIFT NOW!" I still remember the face.. One i would not forget.. There were 4 guys kicking my brother.. Until now.. I am still looking for those guys.. If i find them. I.WILL.MAKE.THEM.PAY. I will have my revenge.. Thats why i am more docile now.. Thats why i dun fight in school.. Cos im waiting for the dae when i scrape their blood of my bloodied knuckles. I am not what i seem. Dun trust me unless you noe what im thinking.. Nah im just joking.. XDXD!! But the part about bloodying my knuckles with their blood is true though.. Thats why i learn muay thai.. Thats why i learn how to use the bo staff.. Thats why i went NCC.. To strengthen myself enough.. So that when the dae comes, I make those guys wish they hadn't pick the brother of the Devil.


As i walked down the corridor,
I saw you leaning against the wall..
As i walked down the corridor..
I realise im not what i seem..
As i walked down the corridor..
I saw myself..

I saw myself with you by my side..
I saw myself with our kids..
I saw myself a happy wedding..

But soon the mirror shattered...
And im back at the corridor again.. 
With you at the far end..
Of the corridor again..

Tuesday, November 16, 2010


CCB! is a song.. CCB = click click boom..Once i look at the NCO manual and under Kekanan pusing, they put kekanana pusing.. =D I couldnt get it!! I couldnt get why the manual have to be so damm funny.. =D

Being a reporter in NYP is hard!! I FORGOT TO PRESS REC!! T_T

So.. anyone care to tell me how MAC went? Anyway we had alot of laughs as i joked about the grammar error hafiz made.. like Which place would you like to go eat? XDXD~~

Im having a headache.. gonna go sleep soon.. T_T

Im lying.
If i say you have eyes Brighter than the Brightest Day..
If i say you have a voice more beautiful then a mermaid..
If i say you have a laughter that complements music..
Then im lying..

Because you're pretty just the way you are..
I don't need to praise you or complement you..
Because you're just that.

Monday, November 15, 2010


NYP IS AWESOME! Minus the lesson.. WE can wear anything we want.. do anything we like.. swim whenever we want.. play basketball whenever we want.. play tennis.. whatever!! there's also good food and lotsa people to hangout with! We went through a lesson of project management.. and i think SOMEBODY, typed my name wrong and wrote.. Jasooon.. reminds me of how Siti used to call me when she sees me.. JASONNn.......

AISEH SITI!! LOVE ON FIRST SIGHT SEH!! WHOOOOO.....Ok, enough with the annoyance, stop frowning/blushing/getting angry at me.. Seriously... Its rare to have such things you noe.. If that guy glances at you.. he probably think you're attractive.. so.. GOOD LUX!! =D Hope you can meet him on the streets... have better luck than me!! =DD I fail on love.. I killed myself a thousand times i think.. over a girl i didnt even go for. XDXD!!

I SERIOUSLY SERIOUSLY WANT A GOOD PAIR OF SHOES.... Its the Dunlop Volley.. Maybe the Puma California.. Those are both shoes made suitable for parkour and casual use.. I want to try training parkour now.. maybe if i really go RP or NYP, i can form a Parkour Club within these walls..

Smile.. Its really such a simple thing you noe? But why cant i smile properly? I SMILE LIKE A FRIGGIN DOG... ><! I got a nickname from one of the Paikias in the school.. they call me Bulldog Face.. I notice that it is quite true.. Well.. Im born with it, so i gotta live with it..=D The funny thing in OPSS is, the 4C1 people are quite nice and not like very bad people.. They are quite nice actually, people like Afiq, luffie... and maybe Rickson? I played Basketball with him, and i can say he is very sportsmanlike.. They are humans too.. =D

Love on first sight.. (HAHAHAH!! No, it has nothing to do with you.. it is something of my own..)

It's such a wonderful thing you know?
Love on first sight..
The comedy of it all..
The tragedy at the end..
Its strange...

Isn't love on first sight supposed to be...
Isn't love on first sight be everlasting?
If love on first sight is love.

then how can I say i like her?
when im supposed to love her?

Love, not many people understand what it is for.. those who do, wish they knew it before they married...


Sunday, November 14, 2010

i forgot to post yesterdae..i was sleeping!!

yay!! sleeping is great! sleeping is awesome!! sleeping makes the world go around! so are you! =D INVADERS MUST DIE! XDXD!! I LOVE YOU!! WHO ARE YOU?!?! You noe who you are.. =D IM GETTING PRETTY RANDOM HERE!! I like mac and cheese.. had a chance to cook it myself.. On the first try.. the milk exploded.. literally.. on the second try, with the help of my mum.. i managed to cook a decent dish!! =D

I have more ideas now.. I think it would be good to make a serious film for once.. not comedy..

I want to buy a bo-staff 1.82m long $30... I want an M6 sniper rifle replica from Back-tactical for Christmas.. and a pair of MMA gloves from Liang Seng on My birthdae... =D


I wish i could tell you a joke.
Not dirty..
Not romancing..
Not anything..

I just wish i can talk to you.
Face to face.
Just with you.

I wish i could tell you a joke.
That there's a guy.
Who liked a girl.
That guy is me.
And that girl is you.

Smile. That comes out of jokes right?

Friday, November 12, 2010

All that glitters is not gold!

WHEEE! How any times am i gonna say that? I dun really know you noe? I noe that you dun noe what im trying to make you noe which you obviously do not know.. So, do you get it? NO. I LIKE THAT PART FROM NIGAHIGA!!! You noe, no, you dunno.. You noe.. Just now, i went editing with Hafiz and Syakir early in the morning... we had lotsa fun laughing at ourselves.. especially when i shot syakir in a scene without cocking the gun.. "Eh syakir.. you never die!" look at this video.. This one is the funniest one i've seen so far..
 Fail attack!
UHm.. SERIOUSLY! IS ANYBODY THERE?!?! HAFIZ?!? SITI?!! WK?!?! T_T... Why i notice i call people wrongly sometimes.. =DD I always speak the wrong word... Anyway.. We were like screaming like crazy at Hafiz's House.. Cos we're getting so exctited over the video.. Then... BOOM!! SYAKIR PRESSED THE SHUT DOWN BUTTON!! THEN WE WERE LIKE.. OH SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WEll... Sometime i dun really noe what to write on my blog.. Lets tok abt the art of action choreography.. To me, it is the most awesome job.. cos i get to make people fight the way i want them too.. the way i think is cool.. I think filmmaking might be a choice for me in the future.. That is if it gurantees money.. =D

Love you.

Probably you dont know.
But you should have known.
You should have seen me..
What i did..
What i said..
and what im writing now..

I dont like you..
But i dont hate you too..
Because seriously..
For a girl like you.

I Love You.
I LOVE YOU!!! <3<3<3<3<3!! I LOVE YOU MY SIBLINGS!! AND MY PARENTS... and whoever there is in tis world.. =D

Thursday, November 11, 2010


Todae we were supposed to do editing at my house.. But my comp just hates me.. So we went filming.. again.. we filmed a random parkour scene and a fight scene that was rushed out cos we were running out of battery... T_T tmr morning probably going Hafiz house to do editing.. =D finally we produced 4 films cos we couldnt edit them...

WEll.. I just noticed that i start every sentence with.. "I think" I think that this is a habit of mine.. IS it just me or is there alot and alot and alot of Ts? no? ok.. I noticed one thing.. And that is i have really awesome siblings... I guess they are the only one i can depend on when i lose everything.. If i have no parents to lean on.. They are the closest dat i can get.. to safety. Cameron.. would actually be the closest sibling i have on FB.. but in real life.. My brother and Hafiz would be the closest to me..  on FB.. in order of closeness..
1.Cameron Seow
2.Neo Wei Keong.
3.Maisarah Rawoof.
4.Syakira Zamri.
5.Muhd Hafiz
6.Clivant Chua.
7.Ahmad Shah Johan
8.Ricky Yusoffie.
9.Xavier Khong.
10. Aaron Koh.
11.Eugene Yong.
12.Adeline Yong.

In Real Life:
1.Muhd Hafiz.
2.Eugene Yong.
3.Adeline Yong.
4.Neo Wei Keong.
5.Clivant Chua.
6.Maisarah Rawoof.
7.Ahmad Shah Johan.
8.Ricky Yusoffie.
9.Xavier Khong.
10.Aaron Koh.
11.Syakira Zamri.
12.Cameron Seow.

Well... Thats it.. =D


I hate you.
I hate you..
Do you know how much i detest you?
Do you know how much i wanna kill you?
Do you know how much i wanna hold you tight and not let you go?
Do you know how much i love you?
I hate you..
i hate myself for not holding you when you were crumbling..
I hate myself for not being there when you were crying..
I hate myself.. and i hate you.. because you made me into this..
you made me into someone who loves deeply his archnemesis.. 

I love you.<3

I like such stories.. Love and Hate.. Arent they the same thing?

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

What have i become?

What have i become? Something less than human, But also something more.. This is the most rhetorical thing i can ask.. What have i become, What is something less.. Less human? Or Less like human? What is something more? More Human? Or More like a Human? Maybe we should ask ourselves this question. In pursuing complete perfect humanity, did we lose our humanity along the way? Maybe we did.. In pursuing the greater good for humanity, of course there'll be some sacrifices.. but is it worth it to sacrifice the very thing we're fighting for just for the sake that it'll get better and stronger hopefully? No.

Many people say they are fighting for humanity's economy.. for money, But what was the beginning of all this? the notion to make ourselves stronger and better.. Keep the world running.. but we seemed to have forgotten that.. Maybe one day, I'll grow out of myself, learn to be selfish and learn to accept Human's primal instinct.. To dominate. I hope this Blog will remind the future Me that I used to be like this.. Used to be understanding.. That i used to have Friends. Not just work associates who tries to kill me for the sake of money.

"What have i become? Something less than Human, But also something More." -Alex Mercer- Prototype.

YAY!! ENOUGH WITH THE SMALL TINKY WINKY WIGGLY TALK! SERIOUS ME!  Lets have some fun putting all my words in CAPITAL LETTERS! And also.. WITH SHIFT+1!! =D I liked Invaders must die from The Prodigy.. Its a really nice song.. Maybe we can put it into the fims we are making.. HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HEE HERE HERE HERE!!

Watched it?! Is it nice?!? YES INDEDED! I love you very Deep deep.. =D I wonder when can i stop posting how awesome my sista is.. When i was sick.. She told me to go rest.. Then when she was gonna sleep.. she posted.. something like.. Gd nites.. Its great when you have someone who cares for you.. And she is almost a total stranger to me.. I never seen her before and never talked to her personally before.. =D

I guess she is taking liberties cos she doesnt know me personally.. =D Its okayz.. Im happy just with someone liking my post and toking to me.. =D Im kinda bored now that nobody is bloggin in 3A1.. Hafiz stopped bloggin after one post.. Siti finally stopped at the 90th post.. And WK stopped long long long long long long Long time ago.. did i just say Long?  No. oh.. anyway.. Seems like everybody stopped... BUT NO!! I WONT STOP!! NO I WONT!! Uh.. My homework all put on hold until DECEMBER~~~.. For now.. I need my break.. Hey Hafiz! I think Me, Enyi and Sam needs your help.. WE are making a comedy video of me drinking hot soup.. when i drank.. down...a...urgh.. FLY. I'll tok to you about it tomorrow when we are editing ok?.. I SEE TREES OF GREEN.. RED ROSES TOO.. I SEE THEM BLOOM~~ FOR ME AND YOU!! AND I THINK TO MYSELF.. WHY ARENT ROSES GREEN TOO?

We need our own personality on the film.. Mine is fixed.. Im the troubled teen who shoots anyone who moans..I mean.. Anyone who offends me... Or just random anybody.. As long as i have my Nickel P22!! =D
I dun think it would do us good to imitate the style of any youtube comedian you noe? NigaHiga is pro!! =D
Playing BS and getting booted was the BEST thing that could ever happen to me. (Oh yeah? So you dont like me stopping your kill streak on a little rookie huh? Eat this! *QuickZoom* -BANG- HEADSHOT- Excellent- *You just got booted out the room*) I HATE OPTIC FIBRES!! IT SCREWS ME UP.. I MEAN MY CONNECTION!! EH..

Maybe you didnt know.

Maybe you didnt know,
Whatever that had happened to me.
Maybe you never knew.
Whatever that was going to happen to me.

Right now im telling you.
You just stepped upon me.
You trampled upon my soul.
And you ravaged my heart.

But why o why?
Why the hell did i like you?
Now i know..
I still Love you. 

Sometimes i hate myself for liking the wrong person you noe? But i love myself too for doing that. =D


Tuesday, November 9, 2010


This is the 101th post!!! WHEEE! I just went film making with Hafiz and Syakir.. And we made two films in two hours!! WOOOOT!! YAY!!! =D WHEEE!! Im forever the bad guy!! =D

I bought a new pistol!! HAPPY RIGHT?!? YEAH!! HAPPY!...

I dunno why.. But i feel like closing this blog down too.. Should i??!

You noe, sometimes i think some people have problems but they dun wanna show.. Lets take this girl i have a crush on before (no, not you, dun even think abt it.) She seems to keep up a strong hard front infront of her friends.. and a "Aiyah sianx" attitude when you noe she actually cares.. Maybe she has some kinda serious problem of some kind that we dunno? Mybe family problems? Maybe money problems?? Maybe personal problems... Too stressed out maybe? Maybe you guys may noe her.. Or it might even be one of you? Who noes? im just saying.. Maybe everybody has problems of their own, just that we dun dare to say it out..

I posted something really funny: "I love my siblings, in FB or in Real life." And one of my siblings, you guess it!! CAM!! She posted: "I love you too!!<3" That made my day.. =D She is a really sweet girl.. you noe? Thats why i have her listed as a sister.. =DD

I lied.

I lied to you when i said i like you.
I lied to you when i said NO!
Because i dun like you at all you noe?
I love you so much you dun even noe.

Maybe this is unconditional love.
I give you all i have,
And i want nothing at all.
Its already more than enough if you just accept it.
Make my heart whole again..

You tore me to pieces and ripped me to shreds...
But with a single glance and a single stare.
You pieced me back together again.
If only i noe who this is too.. I wont be feeling so troubled.. Im making love to a wall!! I mean.. yeah.. Making.. Love.. POEMS!! to.. my FB wall.. ok? Dun think dirty!!

Monday, November 8, 2010

100th post!!

OUUUHHhhh... Maaaaiii... Gaaa...hhh..!! the 100th post!! =DDD Im so happy you noe!! the 1ooth post!! WHJEEEEEE!!! Fufufuufu... *Now Siti's closing down her blog.. I'll dominate the blogs!! *MUAHAHHAHAHAHAHH!!! Now im the only person in 3A1 with an Active blog!! MUAHAHAHHA!! JKJK.. Dun close!! T_T.. If you close.. Then im bored.. Then most likely this blog wouldnt last long during the holidaes... GARHH........

I guess im running out of juice here.. I forgot the purpose of this blog ordy.. eheheeh.. Now this blog is only for me to rant and mumble and grumble and tumble about all things good and bad.. I think this blog is to show how much i cant live without my friends.. As the year draws to an end.. I sort of have a sense of desperation as i began to dread.. thinking about what would happen to me if we all leave and go different ways.. No longer will i get annoyed by WK.. No longer will WK be owned by Hafiz.. No longer will i tok to the ever-nodding Fuzzy.. no longer will i see the smiles of Siti.. no longer will i laugh at the three musketears.. No longer will i stand united..

I got the craziest kill streak in BS!! I got 15 kills without dying using the AWP!!! WOOOO!!
Well.. We're gonna make some more films in the future if we can.. I hope we can... We need some actress too.. GARH!! I dunno if Cameron will join us or not.. Then.. I only noe two girls... the other is a really special friend.. Whom i'll make a poem for next.

Siti Maisarah.

Yo Siti! 
I have a feelin you'll be surprised.
As probably you are surprised now.

I remember on that day in Secondary Two.
then i did not know who is Matin & Hafiz..
I remembered what i said.. Though so vaguely.. 
It became the first thing i said.
"Hi, Is your name Siti?"

Such a simple phrase sparked a friendship.. 
How marvelous.. 
How miraculous..
How special..

Now that i remember.. 
I never called you Maisarah..
Thats why on your Birthdae,
I gave you that Keychain..

for a time i forgot who i am..
Maybe i have molded myself on your character..
Thus my blog changed.. 
No longer emo and depressing..

Your Smiles is the most comforting thing to others. It is a symbol of strength.. Something i wouldnt have...
I hope you'll never stop smiling and be happy..Unlike me.
YAY!! Ok.. Stop smiling/Puking/laughing/blushing/whatnot.. JKJK.. Be happy.. That phrase from Chen Qiang.. He says that all the time though he isnt really happy himself.. 

I dun get why people hate some people so much!! Like i have a friend who hates another friend for no apparent reason.. He say she got bad attitude.. But seriously.. WHO DOESNT?! I dun have a good attitude..My attitude sux like shit.. But He is still able to live good with me.. Judge not lest ye be judge man..
This girl.. I worked with her before.. She is friendly and is a really nice person.... though she may take some thing for granted.. Nevertheless she is the most dedicated person i ever seen.  Though she hates what she is doing.. She still does it.. Courage is being scared till you shit in your pants.. But still doing it..AHH!! Now i wanna shit..  I was her classmate for three years.. And she is only like dat this year.. I didnt like her cos love was blind.. I liked her cos she is a brave one. Maybe you should talk to her more and be her best buddy... Maybe she has some problems we dunno? People arent like dat cos they are born lik dat.. She must have some problems she is hiding.. Which explains her attitude towards life and the strong front she puts infront of others.. I said my piece... 


Sunday, November 7, 2010

99th post!!! YAY!!

Left one more.. Ah ha ah ha! Well.. Todae i went out with WK.. 1 - 3.. Too bad Fiz couldnt come.. I walked around and round and bought nothing.. Only eat KFC then tok tok about girls.. and guyz.. In our school... Im like super irritated by him as he keep on elbowing me into the way of others.. Until i gave him a muay thai elbow to the chest.. which caused a whiplash in his neck.. =P serve him right..

I have another idea for the next film.. If we can.. We can make a sequel for the film that we just made.. The idea is this:

since im killed.. somebody has to take my place as the bad guy right? so.. I think my brother would do the job.. since he might wanna take part too.. The same thing happens.. You're still a bodyguard? I think.. and a botched deal happens. Same thing.. At another location of course.. You chase after my brother.. He runs like hell into the same multi-storey carpark.. POV camera comes in.. at 4th floor.. The camera swings around as though you are searching around for my brother.. Then you realise that the place is the same place where you killed me.. Flashback scene.. camera orbits around you.. before stopping facing you.. with me standing behind you.. camera focuses on you.. You turn around very quickly.. and instead my brother is standing there.. a sniper takes a shot at you.. You dodge and take cover..but the bullet hits your leg. My brother disappears and wait for you to die....  then through deception, you take out the sniper (me/syakir?) at the far end.. he comes out.. EPIC GUNFIGHT!! Which of course.. He dies. You win.. you walk away.. limping.. =D So.. hows dat??

OK.. If gunfight is out of the way.. Then how about martial arts? Same confrontational thing.. just that it is with other weapons.. not guns.. Maybe with Sticks? If it is with sticks.. Then i'll step into the fray.. cos i luv sticks! =D Um.. anyway... There will be a fight scene in which we have to utilise close unarmed combat.. Maybe the film starts with a snatching thing.. Then i run like hell.. Parkour scene.. Then finally dead end.. Then mortal combat!!! =DD

oh yeah.. then the confrontational scene for the first idea.. Is when he comes out and say.. Remember this? then he shows my nickel-plated P22.. sniper shot fired... you dodge.. hit leg..superficial wound.... you take cover.. My brother will be using a Dual guns.. One is my P22, the other is his Golden P22.

So... YAY!! New idea!! Maybe we can make an MV too... A love story kind of.. But we need and Actresss!!!!! WHERE'S  OUR ACTRESSS?!?! Oh.. we dun have one..

Kok Hean.

Hi Kok Hean.
I know this is random.
But from randomness comes innovation.
Though you visited only for once.
I feel that its right if i include you in.

You are many persons in one.
You are the only person who sees me and run.
but yet, you are the other person who can make me laugh.
Though i'll say you have a short fuse sometime.
You are still an awesome friend.

A funny person, 
Though random.
YAY!! HI! HI!! HI!!! HI!!! I finally know how Cameron looks like.. She has a brother who looks like me when i was younger!!! =DD Though i now noe her.. I dun think i can find her in the school.. I tried so hard.. But to no avail.. =DD Maybe we should stay as pen pals.. =\