Im depressed...............................................

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Is it because i got a headache? Is it because i didnt come school to play catching? Is it because i didnt see my friends? Is it because i never come for DnT? Is it because im almost late for Lit? Is it because i dunno what the fish im supposed to do? Is it because it is too late? Is it because im gonna die? Is it because im confused? No. Im depressed.. Its because i am. Nobody may know why i am depressed cos i dunno myself. I dunno why i am depressed.. Maybe its really because im tired of struggling to control the cadets.. Or just that i think my effort to maintain ncc's standard is futile..

I dun have much to write todae, Wished i can play catching with you guys again. It had been a fun time.. Sometimes i get heartburn.. Sometimes my throat feels like it caught fire, Sometimes i felt like i vomitted blood.. sometimes i felt paralysed or something.. Maybe soon my time is up.. My head's going haywire these few days.. When can we play again?

Tomorrow, morning got lit, then.. SS.. Then after that, if God let me, let Mr Tan not catch me and keep me back.. Let me go home to prepare to watch movie with my friends, I think after all these, if i got money left, i'll use them to go Homefix and buy some paint. I need paint to beautify my P22.. This i must do before i die.. =D My dream hobby is modification and creation of guns. Guns that protect humanity, Not destroy it. I have alot of ideas drawn out and dimensions written. But they cant be fulfilled because i never studied gunsmithing.

I hope that if i die, The world shall not mourn for me. They shall forget me and live on with their lives, They shall treat me as just another guy who died on Earth. I dont wish to be a burden to anyone or a symbol of sadness to anyone and everyone. I wish to be a symbol of inspiration and a pioneer of "Never Say Die"

I believe that to Die Hard, you gotta Live Free. So.. I shall Live Free and Die Hard.

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To date.

To date, 

I forgot how many girls i had fallen for.

I forgot how much i hated being rejected.

I forgot how many times i got rejected.

People say such wounds never heal.

But its because they never try to make it heal.

You're my salve.

You're my life.

no matter how scarred i am.

No matter how depressed i become.

Thinking of you just keeps me going.

Since you shined for me and brought light into my life.

Please let me light up your life too.

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I wish to say this to anyone and everyone, 

I'm Sorry if i did you wrong. People makes mistakes in their lives. A man once said, "To suppress our desires, is to suppress the very thing that makes us human." If i offended you in anyway, I hope you'll forgive me since i wasnt using my brains.

Im tired of it all.. Im tired of struggling to keep myself awake while writing my blog.. Everyday, writing my blog is a brainwrecker, I have to try to make it funny and intrigueing and random and whatnot.. 

Adios and Have a Very Nice Day.