Can you be my friend?

Can you? T_T Sad.. But life still has to go on.. The newspaper worksheet still havent do yet.. Cannot find any info from the Net. I think i lost one of my limbs when i was rejected years ago..Now.. I think i lost one more.. Look MA! NO HANDS!..

Well..... Love poems.. YAYAYAYAYAYYY!!.............

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Hey Pretty.

I was struck blind by your everlasting Beauty.

I was made speechless by your smile..

I was made deaf by your Cute Laugh..

If i can..

I'll want to have your beauty..

Your smile,

Your Laugh.. To be Mine only..

Yet, I cannot be selfish..

It'll be enough,

IF i can just say,

"Hey Pretty" 

To you every single day.

So that i can see your Smile.

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If only i knew what im doing.. If only i knew..

Well... Many people ask me.. Why am i holding on to that dying hope? I should just give up since there's plenty of other fishes in the sea..Well.. To me.. She is not just a fish.. She's a Mermaid.. She is unique.. She is too good for me.. I really should give er' up for someone more worthy i guess.. This brings us to the next poem.. YAY!!!! MERMAID!!!... I dunno wad to write about mermaids..=_=""

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Mermaid.

Many once told me to give up.

Some told me to hold on.

A few told me to go for it..

Many told me there's plenty of fishes out in the sea..

Some told me she's a bass..

A few told me She's a Dragon.

But me, myself.. told me.

She's a Mermaid.

A Unique Mermaid.

Too good for me,

Too Kind for me..

Im too selfish if i don't give up.

I'm too weak if i don't hold on,

Im too intrusive if i go for it..

If only i knew what to do..

IF only i knew.

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Late...

Almost forgot to blog todae.. T_T
Many things happened todae... Originally wanted to go for a run with my brother.. ended up eating KFC.. Maybe going Northpoint tmr with fiz to to homework... Sad... no girls... I feel like i'm desperate...

A story.. To behold.. I seriously don't know wad to write..

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Bus Stop.

As i sat on that seat, on that very day, on that very hour, at that very second.. I noticed your flowing hair.. Your flawless skin,that tinge of sadness in your very eyes.. On that rainy, gloomy morning.. You were waiting for the bus, the bus to school, our school.

You didn't know me then, but i knew you.. I knew alot about you. I noticed you on that day.. when you came aboard that bus.. Now.. every morning, i sit at bus stop just to see you. 

I knew your name, i knew who you were, but i can never figure out what made you so sad.. What made you so oblivious to the world.. that everyday.. Your world is one in music.. Devoid of any emotion except sadness. The earphones you wear.. So black.. so white.. So emotionless.. 

Every morning, I sat beside you on that very seat. You never noticed me at all.. But i don't mind.. As long as you were there every morning... As long as you were there..As long as You were there.. 

Though we are in different classes.. My heart stayed with you.. though it is an unspeakable love.. My heart burned, when i can't see you.. If only you knew.. IF only you knew. Why did God put me in this class.. Why?

On that fateful day, you weren't there.. When i asked my friends.. When i asked everyone in school.. They'll give me a bewildered look.. They'll say.. "Haven't you heard? Her Dad sent her off to some other countries to further her studies.." I was heart-broken when i heard that.. I couldn't believe it.. 

Since that fateful day,  I had been waiting for you, on that very seat, at that very hour, at that very second. It had been a year..

Finally.. You were back.. on that very seat. Right beside me..

I know this is very sudden.. But would you let me be the one to lift that sad tinge off your eyes? 

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WEll.. I did this in the middle of the night at 2.07.. T_T

I'm a friggin risk-taker..

I'm climbing in yo' windows snatching yo kittens up.. Im Spiderman! I can imagine myself in a spiderman suit crashing into windows and trying to run out the front door.. =D

Im Cheering for anyone who needs a cheer now..
Im a help hotline.. if you need help.. please call "blablabla"..
IF you seriously need a listening ear.. just talk to me in school..
I will only.. "Um.. Ar...Orh.." =D

But.. Nobody ever listens to me.. Nobody can ever hear that dying heart.. People can only see the monster... The big friggin giant.. T_T Can anybody hug me? I think they cant.. Im too big..

Lets have a love-poem todae.. Tmr's a story.. Todaes a history.. =D

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Hug..

Everyday,

I'll imagine that you'll give me a hug.

Everyday,

I'll long for you to give me hug.

Everyday,

I'll just sit there,

Waiting for someone to give me a hug..

But now,

I know..

If i love you,

I don't need a hug from you,

For i'll hug you.

Even if you don't,

I know now..

I'm supposed to be the one,

who'll support you,

when you need it,

though it hurts me inside..

Go for him.. 

Hug Him.. 

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IF i tell you.. I've given hope on you.. would you believe me? Would you be my friend once more?

Ghost.

Im a Ghost in school...When i walk past people.. They never notice me..When i am beside them.. They notice me with a shriek.. When i am alone and walking towards someone.. They say i look like a murderer, full of hostility...

I think i'm giving up hope.. I think i can't take these anymore..I'm tired of reaching for the stars.. I just wanna get down to Earth and go for things on the ground.. on my level..

Well.. Since i wrote more than 15 poems already.. I'll continue writing more. Lovey-Dovey none the less..

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Giving Up.

If i give in to the fact now..

I'll no longer have to deceive myself,

Deceive my friends,

Deceive her.

Deceive all.

I don't wanna say i like you,

Because i love you.

I don't wanna say i want you,

Because i need you.

I don't wanna say I'll live for you,

Because i'll die for you.

If i give up now,

I don't need to have anything to do with you..

But will it turn back the clock? 

Will everything be the same as before?

Will you be with me once more?

Tell me,

Should i give up? 

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Maybe i'll drop dead the next morning?

This what i am always thinking.. This is how pessimistic i can get and how suicidal i may be.. =D

Gonna go for a run ltr by myself... Abit scared nowadays.. I feel like someone's STALKIN ME! (EGO much?) =D Feel abit unsafe.. Im always paranoid... T_T

WEll.. I never end this post without a poem.. no matter how much they suck...
Lovey-Dovey poems again!

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Spark.

Romeo and Juliet,

Lysander and Hermia,

Oberon, Titania,

Demetrius, Helena.

If only an epic could describe their love,

A novel would do nothing more.

Me & You,

Not even a story came..

but a spark that will ignite the longest flames,

a spark that will bring forth a story,

A spark of a new beginning.. 

Would be the spark of life.

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You don't need to accept me,

I just need to pretend i dont know you..

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I have only the faintest idea what this means... BTW, all those poems came from the subconcious me.. =D (I know! I sound crazy!)

Happy Delayed Teacher's Dae!

Yesterdae was fun in school.. Backstage... Ok.. HAHA.. Ho Ching beat me up abit behind the wall when i was annoying the hell out of him until he wanted to say F***.. =D Siti changed gifts with me cos she doesnt know who Mr Goh CJ is... MY NCC TEACHA! So.. Alls well that ends well.. I get to give the gift to Mr Goh..The councillor Gifter or Giver? OR GiftVer? Tmr is Thursdae.. Hope i wont be so tired that i don't wanna come school early play basketball..

Getting my interest in BBALL back.. After my BBall went missing.. I'm playing Bball in the hope that i'll find it in behind the fences..  I'm gonna play so hard that i'll own WK and atleast fare abit against Wilson.. Let's be a Super BBALL Double-TEAM FIZ! Triple team if WK is inside.. =D

Learned how to shoot from Wilson.. Getting better at aiming thanks to him.. Well.. You gotta know your enemy to win him....  I'm always under the hoop so that i can try alleying.. managed to do a fake one though.. its hard.. =D

Saw a few friends in my Old School.. My bestfriend forgot who i was.. =D

Well Todae's hopefully not a Love Poem! (I got something to write now..)
You GUESS IT! THIS IS A TEACHAS DAE POEM~~~~!!!~~@!!!

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Teachers...

Everyday we dread seeing you..

Everday we fear seeing you...

Everyday we freeze when we see you..

Everyday we drop dead when we see you..

Everyday is like hell with you...

But.. Everyday you'll love seeing us...

Everyday you'll love us...

Everyday you'll help us..

Everyday.. No matter when... No matter what.. You'll try to be a friend.. 

Though we are so annoying..

Though we make you a year old every second..

Though we made your dreams a hell..

Though we always bite the hand that feeds us...

You're an angel without wings..

For you gave us yours..

HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!

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P.S: My ambition when i was young was to be a teacher... So that i can guide the kids on the right path.. I wished to be a barrier to the wrong path.. no matter how many try to push through..